Hey, I'm Just Being Honest

You guys. Part of my Beachbody coach life includes weekly "team calls."  Honestly, this is something that I usually miss. Mostly because I forget, but also because I have something else to do or I feel like I'm overwhlemed with Beachbody stuff to begin with and I don't want to hear all these uber successful coaches talk about how great they are.

Hey. I'm just being honest.

In my adult years, I've struggled with, well, being an adult. While my friends were getting married, I was going to happy hours with my co-workers. While my friends were having kids, I was living at my mother's house - still single. I'm now married and my husband and I are living in an apartment, not a house whereas most people I know have a mortgage. I still love things like Disney movies, Christmas morning and unexpectedly getting ice cream on the weekends.For crying out loud, I'm re-reading the Harry Potter series currently. Sheesh. My point is that I've had a hard time accepting the fact that I am, in fact, a grown woman. You guys, it's been incredibly difficult for me to see all my friends successes and accomplishments and not be incredible frustrated that I'm "not there yet." I see their houses and cars and gorgeous children and I run the gamut of emotions from anger to jealousy to frustration.

Hey. I'm just being honest.

Thinking about this recently, I regret not being simply joyous for my friends during their times of happiness. And I am/was happy for them. I was simply so caught up in being annoyed that I wasn't "quite there yet." I didn't have the car/boyfriend/job/body/exciting travel life that others did. Comparison has brought down my ownself esteem and that's my fault.

Now I'm doing this Beachbody coach thing and I'm learning as I go. It's a company that I believe in that has a mission that lines up with my own values. I'm in this group of coaches that seem to have nothing but time to work on growing their business. They are posting on social media and always outrageously EXCITED about their lives. I mean, dang ladies,don't you ever have a bad day?

Hey. I'm just being honest.

So back to the coach call tonight. The topic was comparison. *It's really amazing how God puts the right message at the right time in front of us, isn't it?* Anyway, My SISTER was giving the presentation! She spoke about how comparison isn't just the thief of joy (Teddy Roosevelt reference) but the thief of strength and success. Interesting. All this time I've WASTED comparing myself to others when my biggest asset has always been in the mirror. I've inadvertently pushed away friends because they are on a different path than me. I've turn friendship into competition and that's made me bitter.

Hey, I'm just being honest.

Moving forward, I want to focus on only myself as my competition; only compare me to me. I want to find happiness within myself and contentment with "where I am" in my life and for that to shine through to others. I want to work on being the BEST version of myself, while helping others become the be best version of themselves. It CAN happen, and I intend for it to! <3

Hey, I'm just being honest.